Last night I stood at the door and watched in amazement as the woods, the fields, meadows, trees, grass and sky were lighting up…literally. Does God see me?
I’ve never in all my life seen so many lightening bugs (fire flies to some of you) out, active and brilliant.
It was as if the paparazzi had been unleashed and millions of flashes were going off simultaneously. It was stunning. Try as I might, I couldn’t capture it on my phone video. And I almost missed it…I just happen to get home late and looked up and I am so glad that I did.
I stood out there for a long time and it never died down.
There all around me and I wasn’t even aware
of the magnificence around me.
There is also, surrounding me on any given moment…no matter how I feel or what I’m doing…
a protection and a barrier
a mighty and all-powerful hand that is holding, guiding and stopping and allowing.
Sometimes what I do not see makes me discouraged and I begin to believe wrongly that I’ve been forgotten…
but that’s just because my eye is naked to the supernatural.
Thankfully so because if I were to really be able to see what God is doing and the forces in action – I know that I would not be able to stand let alone stand it. I would be consumed not only by His Holiness but by His goodness. If God gave us all that He has for us all at once, we couldn’t take it.
That includes the lessons and the discipline
but that also includes His blessing and His love and all that He is doing for me, with me, in spite of me.
He’s never taking a break.
He’s never sleeping.
He’s always paying attention.
He always knows.
Even when you feel as if you have to scream at Him to get His attention…you are in good company. Job felt like that. David did too. Martha was irritated at her sister when she wasn’t helping enough, she wanted God to see her…and of course, He did.
His timing is impeccable – it’s down right perfect.
His goodness is surrounding you like a shroud – you are cloaked in His care.
NOTHING absolutely nothing can come between you and Him.
It may seem as if you have been thrown to the wolves and God wants to see you destroyed but that is the fiery darts from the enemy, that is because you live in a fallen world that is cold and cruel and that is because you so long to know and understand the reasons why you have to suffer in the first place.
But all of those things are like those flashes of light from the lightening bugs…they are going off simultaneously and although there is a reason for their flashes they aren’t so planned out and they haven’t been thought out…they are, bugs.
But God’s got this – and it is perfect.
ALL AROUND YOU.
ALL THE TIME.
I know, it feels like sometimes, His love isn’t love at all. It feels lonely, fearful, crushed and depressed…but that’s your emotions talking. That’s your mind, your circumstance, talking. That’s where the battle lies. You might have every reason to feel so depressed. You may be struggling physically and mentally…you may never be able to rise above the depression…but that doesn’t mean that God isn’t seeing, hearing, listening.
Remember, you don’t see everything that is going on
and we certainly aren’t aware of all that God is doing – even when you are sleeping, when you are bent over on the floor weeping, when you are screaming at Him, “Don’t you see, God, don’t you care?”
And that screaming and all of that frustration …
God can handle it.
He knows you are at your end. He knows you DON’T know that HE knows.
He’s asking you to trust Him and His love.
IN THIS…whatever you are going through, whatever you are facing and who ever…
He’s in it.
He may need to remove you from it, change your heart to be able to stand it or desire it or love it (or them) or He may leave you for a while in a difficult place that seems like a never-ending place of punishment…but it is not. That’s the enemy whispering those nasty lies of defeat to you.
It’s part of those flashing lights in the darkness…like a flaming arrow…only there is also a power – a power with all authority that can destroy and stop those arrows.
If you could see all the arrows that have been stopped, snuffed out before they reached you…you would stand in awe.